February 7 From Mourning to a Day of Sunshine and Happiness
February 7, 1989 was a day that I thought I could never get over for the rest of my life. I had to be at the hospital at 6 am to be induced at 27 weeks of pregnancy. You see, my baby had multicystic kidney disease in both kidneys and my pregnancy had to be terminated. I was not going home with a baby that day. I was walking into the hospital a little over 5 months pregnant, where as a few days prior I had hopes and dreams that this sweet baby, girl or boy, would be the next President or gymnast, or "Billy Graham" whatever they chose or aspired to be. However, this child was in their Heavenly home. Oh what Glory!
As I was moved from Labor and Delivery to a different floor, not the maternity floor of the hospital, that night I lay there and I began to ask God a few questions. Why? Why my baby boy? I have never done anything harmful to my body, I have been your child God, I have served you faithfully, so why? And over and over I began to question. Bitterness and anger would well up inside as I lay there alone in the darkness of that hospital room. And just like God, even in the dark He comes to me . . .
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me." Psalm 23:4
Now let's fast forward to February 7, 2015 . . . A woman walks into a hospital in another state. Has a baby that is premature and leaves. This baby needs some medical attention and has to have surgery which he gets. In 1989 I would have been so sad and not understanding at why God would let this woman have this baby and abandon him but I couldn't go home with mine. But God always has greater plans. This little boy born February 7, 2015 has become our sunshine! The day that has been a sad day for me for 26 years finally became a day of sunshine and celebration! Its the Birthday of Joshua Lewis Butts! What a joy to my life--Joshua! We will cuddle in Poppi and Mimi's bed and watch Mario cart, eat Go-gurt in the bed (on a towel), and do anything you love the most at the time!
"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
As I was moved from Labor and Delivery to a different floor, not the maternity floor of the hospital, that night I lay there and I began to ask God a few questions. Why? Why my baby boy? I have never done anything harmful to my body, I have been your child God, I have served you faithfully, so why? And over and over I began to question. Bitterness and anger would well up inside as I lay there alone in the darkness of that hospital room. And just like God, even in the dark He comes to me . . .
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me." Psalm 23:4
Now let's fast forward to February 7, 2015 . . . A woman walks into a hospital in another state. Has a baby that is premature and leaves. This baby needs some medical attention and has to have surgery which he gets. In 1989 I would have been so sad and not understanding at why God would let this woman have this baby and abandon him but I couldn't go home with mine. But God always has greater plans. This little boy born February 7, 2015 has become our sunshine! The day that has been a sad day for me for 26 years finally became a day of sunshine and celebration! Its the Birthday of Joshua Lewis Butts! What a joy to my life--Joshua! We will cuddle in Poppi and Mimi's bed and watch Mario cart, eat Go-gurt in the bed (on a towel), and do anything you love the most at the time!
"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
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